So one of my husbands friends told me I would feel better if I wrote about what I was going threw. I didn't believe him but now I am thinking he might be right.
My father in law is in the final stages of Lung cancer, he he no longer eating, drinking, or talking. He will only take his pain medications and nothing else. It is the worst feeling in the world to not be able to help my husband right now.
One of us has to stay with Riley cuz he doesn't need to be around for this, which makes this so much harder. Riley cash will never know this wonderful man who is his paw*paw. Riley and Ronnie have this bond. Its been there from the day Riley was born. I can't explain it but to this day Riley sees pictures of paw*paw and gets a smile on his face.
And I feel so bad for jay words can't explain how bad I feel for him. I can't imagine watching your father die. And not having anything to be able to help with. My heart aches to not know what to say or do. Its awful. I feel like I am not doing enough for him. He says I am but ya know I still feel bad.
I just wish this wasn't happening but I know it is.. Life isn't fair and this is fraking sucky!
